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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Mind like a razor blade. (Anonymous)

Aging is bad. As I approach the end of my twenties I find myself losing the edge that youth gave me. Whereas I used to solve problems for breakfast, now they whizz around in my brain confusing me, frustrating me, taunting me. This is a phenomenon I call "fatherhood". Now I'm sure the Bill Joy's of this world have 10 children and still get time to knock out a couple of revolutionary file-sharing protocols in their tea-break, but us mere mortals can not compete with this. I am always tired; at work, at home, even when I'm asleep. Relentless never-ending tiredness. Now I'm not complaining, my daughter is the best thing to happen to me since I met my wife, and is 20 times more rewarding than any solved problem, completed level or smug moment on #edge.

BUT...

When I'm sitting here at 11pm trying to start a simple little hobby coding project and I can't even start something is wrong. Seriously wrong. I have a mind like a razor blade, it's just old and rusty and over-used. And a bit chipped.

Coder's block is a horrible affliction. Ideas? Check. Inclination? Check. Tools? Check. Brain?... brain?.... BRAAAAAAAIIIINNNNNN?.... nothing. I am thinking of ways of remedying the situation. A week of good sleep and a 2 week holiday might be a good start, which is lucky seeing as I go on holiday next week. Maybe just stepping away from coding for a month would be a plan. Or maybe MORE coding? Maybe a different language - Kenshi alluding to Ruby Rails has set my mind on web-apps again. So we'll see. If I could just shake off this tiredness...

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